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gave her, as I also prayed, that the Lord would gra. ciously forgive all her fins, and the guilty hand she had in procuring her own death; telling her, that though our days were determined, and a period fixed to the life of every creature, in the eternal decrees of God, yet people might be verily guilty in shortening their days, and had need to apply to the blood of Jesus for forgiveness of that fin. She then said, "O gracious and merciful God, for the sake of the Son of thy love, who shed his precious blood for guilty finners, forgive all my trespasses, and my great fin and folly in mourning immoderately for the dead, and thereby impairing my health, and abridging my days, which should have been employed in an active glorifying of thy name, and Thewing forth tby, praise.” I did every thing to comfort her, prayed and conversed much with her. She was unhappy when I was not with her. She grew daily worfe and worfe, but was refreshed with the inanifestations of the love of God to her foul. She told me, that she had early tasted that the Lord was gracious; that he had blesed her uncle and aunt's instructions to her, thanking him for fo excellent and godly guardians, who had loved her as tenderly as if she had been their own child; and had made the preaching of the glorious gospel of Christ very useful to her, and had often thined upon her heart at the holy communion ; that she had seen the vanity of the world, and the folly of indulging a vain paffion, and abandoning herfelf to extravagant grief for her fatal disappointment, wishing nobody might follow her foolith example; that the loathed herself and her own righteousness, and depended entirely upon the righteousness and merits of Christ for pardon and acceptance with God, and her whole hope was built on the covenant of grace made with
the exalted Surety. She continued quite sensible to the end; and having called all her coulins to her bedside, she gave them her blessing, with many good advices; and having taken an affectionate leave of me, and of the whole family, I holding her by the right hand, she expired in a very pleafant manner, faying, “ O Lord, I come, I come. Lord Jesus, receive my spirit. Thus did this lovely lady resign her soul into the hands of her dear Lord Jesus, in the faith of being with him for ever.
The whole family were overwhelmed with grief, and I could not but mourn for the amiable girl many days. She had made her will about three months before, in which she left her estate, divided into three different parts, one to Miss Jessy T-s, the fecond to Mr T-s's second son, and the third to his third fon; and all her money in the funds and in her uncle's hands, to the younger children equally betwixt them. Shę left her own gold watch to Mifs T-s, now married, and her mother's to Mifs Jeffy, and her father's to me, which I accepted of, together with a rich diamond ring that her father had wore. I attended the corpse to the grave, which was conducted in solemn proceflion, amídít a great company of weeping spectators.
Having staid some time in this family after this melaocholy occasion, Mr T-s propofed a marriage between me and his daughter Jeffy, earnestly pressing me to make my addresses to her, afluring me I would fucceed, and representing his earnest desire to have me related to his family. I thanked him for all his kindnesses, and the great affection shewn me by him and all his worthy family; I told him I was duly sensible of the merit of the young lady, and of the great honour intended me; but that as I was troubled with a weakness in the lungs, was of a delicate conftitu
tion, and threatened with a consumption, I was resolved to live and die a bachelor, being now mortified to all'carnal pleasures. He was mightily cha. grioed with my refusal; telling me, that one to whom his family was under so many obligations, and whom they loved as a brother, had formerly refused to receive a trifling legacy left by his dear fon, and now declined an affinity with him. I told him I could not help it; that I loved him and his family, and some time ago would have reckon. ed such a proposal a real honour done me, which I would have accepted with delight; but that the iosuccess of my affair with Miss Cm, the on. ly lady I ever did or could love, had rendered me dead to all the sex; that I had laid afide all thoughts of altering my condition, and was refol. ved to devote the rest
of my days to religious retirement; would stay at home in winter, and travel in the summer for my health. I assured him I would ever regard him and his family, and frequently visit them. This declaration was very acceptable to him; and I from that time continued to visit this worthy family three or four times in a year, and always met with a moft gracious reception.
I have now finished the first part of these Mes moirs, which I wish may afford as great pleasure to the reader on a serious perusal, as they did to me in the writing of them. I know, that every friend of Christ will rejoice and be edified at such astonishing instances of the sovereignty and cfficacy of divine grace, displayed in the converfion of so many finners, and in such ravishing manifeftations of the love of God to those who had swum in vice and sensuality, and rebelled a. gainst heaven. The profane will meet with awful warnings, the secure and thoughtless will fee abundance of motives to rouse them, the ignorant
will find means of instruction, every finner will see where his hcip lies, the mourner will be comforted, and every good Christian animated to a life of faith and hope. I trust God will be glorified, and the interests of religion promoted, by a narrative, which, however meanly executed, is honestly intended for the honour of the exalted Redeemer, and for magnifying his grace and righteousness;, to whom, with the Father, and blefed Spirit, be glory ascribed for ever. Amen!
The author visits the mof nated towns, and collects Ariking anecdotes. The history of the adventures of a lady who pursued learned studies in a male habit, and of those of a handsome maid-fervant.
Fter Miss Cam's untimely death, having
refolved to visit the chief places in the king dom for the benefit of my health; the next spring after, I set out on my travels, and had the pleafure of seeing all the worthy gentlemen who had aslifted me in paying the last duty to our dear du. ceased friend. I had for fome time carried on an epistolary correspondence with them all, and found, to my great joy, that they persevered in an attachment to the cause of religion, amidst all the reproaches thrown on it by wicked and profane men. But Mr M, now a celebrated phyfician, was my favourite friend and distinguished companion. I was in use to visit him four times, and some times oftener, in a year, and to reside many days at his house, we being happy in one another's company and conversation. Though I
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visited the metropolis, and all tre noted towns in the kingdom ; yet it is not my intention to give a description of any of them, or of their antiquities, churches, town-houses, government, c. as these particulars ingroffed little of my attention. In every place I endeavoured to cultivate the acquaintance of the evangelical clergy, and of the friends to the religion of Jesus Christ, for my improvement in Christian faith and love.
In these excursions I collected many remarkable histories and affecting anecdotes, which would furnish materials for many volumes, and afford no small entertainment to all who fear the Lord, and regard the falvation of their fouls. As I have nothing remarkable of my owo to communicate to the world, I shall present the reader with a few of the most diftinguished anecdotes I met with, as a proper conclusion of the above memoirs ; referving the rest for the subject of other two volumes, if tlie Lord spare my life to finish what I intend.
I have already in chap. IX. given an account of Mr T-s's fufpicions of a certain young gentleman with whom he was acquainted, being, from certain circumstances therein related, a lady in disguise." I shall therefore give an account of that lady, and the several itriking anecdotes she furnished me with. -- Several years after Mr T-s's death, travel. ling homeward after an excursion of several months, I overtook on the public road, after breakfast, a very well-dreffed comely gentleman, attended by a fervnint in very neat livery, both on horseback. We entered into an agreeable converfation ; and, after travelling some hours, we arrived within light of a fine country-feat; which the gentleman told me was his house, and very politely invited me to dine with him ; affuring