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the afternoon lukewarm, partly owing to the op pressive heat of the weather.

29. Retired pleasantly a while this evening out of the encumbering things of this world, which I find engross too much of my precious time.

SEVENTH MONTH, 1801.

3. Rather a low time at meeting to-day. 4. My niece was this day married. I was so much indisposed that I could feel little ability for any thing more, than some aspirations for her pre servation.

9. Reached Bristol about noon: found our dear relations well.

10. Attended the week-day meeting. In the afternoon went to Pill to see if our dear friends Samuel Smith and Sarah Stephenson had sailed, found them on shore at John Grace's. Spent a pleasant evening with them. They were led in an encouraging line, in an opportunity after tea; sweetly exhorting to an encreasing faithfulness and patient enduring to the end.

13. Their week day-meeting silent, but a season of sweet solace to my poor feeble mind.

19. A trying day from indisposition.

21. Week-day meeting; dear Hannah Stephenson appeared acceptably. I was too lukewarm myself. Came in the afternoon to Weston.

23. Walked for some hours on the beach, ad

miring the majesty and beauty of the ocean; and the power and wisdom of Him who created it; setting bounds and limits to its proud waves, saying "Hitherto shalt thou come, but no further."

25. Sweet and peaceful in this humble cottage, where I see how few things are really needful. A sense of multiplied blessings hath bowed my spirit this morning.

26. Walked on the beach before breakfast. After it retired into a field to commune a little with my own heart and be still.

27. Retired a while; but could feel little of that life and love which sustains and comforts the soul.

31. Came to Bristol, attended the week-day meeting, which was a season of favour to my soul. I was consoled in the remembrance that the servant who gained but two talents to those commit ted to his care was accepted as well as he who had gained five.

EIGHTH MONTH, 1801.

2. A contriting season at meeting this morning during the time of silence. Came to Weston in the afternoon.

4. How are the Lord's mercies renewed from day to day; sustaining, consoling, and instructing the attentive mind!

8. The rest of this week spent in peaceful re tirement at Weston: I hope not unimproved.

10. A day to be remembered for the fresh descendings of heavenly dew, and pure aspirations after holiness.

14. Renewed my spiritual strength to-day at meeting. What a favour! ́

18. Shamefully lukewarm at meeting this morning, which brought deserved condemnation. 23. Some life attended the morning meeting; the evening I thought painfully dull.

25. Favoured with sweet access to the throne of grace; where I craved the continuance of divine regard, and preservation from even the appearance of evil.

30. A time of searching of heart; and the petition of it was that the Lord would be pleased to do my work in me and for me, seeing my insufficiency even to regulate my thoughts aright. Dear George Dillwyn ministered unto us clothed with best authority; and I thought divided the word aright. Had a sweet little opportunity after supper. at Ann Till Adams'.

-31. Spent the day in sweet society: dear brother Samuel with us.

12.

NINTH MONTH, 1801.

The rest of this week confined by a cold and fever; yet fear it has not been much improved. Attended the morning meeting, in which my spiritual strength was sweetly renewed, George Dillwyn

appeared largely and acceptably, and also Phebe Blakes. Phebe Blakes and Sarah Lynes dined with us. The latter addressed my dear mother in an extraordinary manner, and after much encouragement told her, that she believed that after the warfare was compleated, she would be gathered as a shock of corn fully ripe into the heavenly garner. Then she encouraged poor me to hold on my way; believing, though I was permitted to pass as through the waters, the waves should not over, whelm me; and through the fire, the flames should not kindle upon me, &c.

16. The quarterly meeting [ for Bristol and Somersetshire]: I thought it a time of gathering. The wing of antient Goodness was sensibly spread over us, to the rejoicing of the spirits of some of us; dear Sarah Lynes and Phebe Blakes appeared acceptably among us; and were again exercised in the meeting for discipline, to call the youth to come home and build upon the alone sure foundation, Christ Jesus the Rock of ages.

18. Took leave of my beloved relations and friends; and came to Salisbury. I was very ill the greater part of the day and the night following; yet came on to Alton next day.

20. Again laid upon the bed of sickness. Have renewedly desired that my will may not in any wise oppose the Lord's will.

25. The quarterly meeting [for Hampshire]. Some degree of favour I thought attended the

meeting to-day. I think I felt thankful that I was permitted to sit with my dear friends.

26. Returned home after an absence of three months.

29. Received the affecting intelligence of the removal of my sweet nephew John Waring; yet think it an unspeakable consolation that he is gathered with the beauty of innocency upon him. Attended our Monthly meeting, a contriting season.

TENTH MONTH, 1801..

3. A day of joy to thousands: peace being once more restored to this guilty land; in addition to the blessing of a plentiful harvest. It has renewedly bowed my spirit before a gracious and long suffering God; desiring such unmerited mercy may not pass unacknowledged, or unimproved.

5. Methought the dew of heaven rested upon me this day, which sweetly contrited my spirit before a merciful God.

IO.

Have desired to bear my allotted portion of suffering with patience and resignation.

II.

Was desirous that my offering this morning might not be polluted with self, but of the Lord's preparing, well knowing it is his own works, which alone can acceptably praise him.

14. Have had my time pretty fully occupied. for several days, and my mind at times beset with

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