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This "lights us deep" into the cast of Bunyan's musings in prison. They were not, however, always thus bold, or bright. But, bright or dark, he has told them with equal frankness, and for a noble purpose. There is nothing finer either in sentiment or language, in any writer, than his application of David's words, on contributing to the building of the temple, to his

own legacy to the Church;-" Many more of the Divine dea ings towards me (in prison), I might relate: but these, out of the SPOILS won in battle, have I dedicated to maintain the house of God." These spoils, happily, remain for the use of the Church. "I have continued with much content, through Grace," he says, "in Prison: but have met with many turnings and goings upon my heart, both from the Lord, Satan, and my own corruptions. By all which,-Glory be to Jesus!—I have also received, among many things, much conviction, instruction, and understanding: of which, at large, I shall not here discourse: only give you a hint or two; a word that may stir up the Godly to bless God, and to pray for me; and also to take encouragement, should the case be their own, 'Not to fear what man can do unto them.'

"I never had in all my life, so great an inlet into the word of God as now those scriptures that I saw nothing in before, were made, in this place and state, to shine upon me; Jesus Christ also was never more real and apparent than now; here I have seen and felt him indeed. Oh! that word, We have not preached unto you cunningly devised fables;' and that, God raised Christ from the dead, and gave him glory, that our faith and hope might be in God,' were blessed words unto me in this my imprisoned condition.

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"These three or four scriptures, also, have been great refreshments in this condition to me; 'Let not your heart be troubled, ye believe in God, believe also in me.-In my Father's house are many mansions, if it were not so I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to myself, that where I am there ye may be also.-And whither I go ye know, and the way ye know.-These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation, but be of good cheer, I have

overcome the world.—For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God; when Christ, who is our life, shall appear, then shall ye also appear with him in glory.-But ye are come to mount Zion, and unto the city of the living God, the heavenly Jerusalem, and to an innumerable company of angels. To the general assembly and church of the first-born which are written in heaven, and to God the Judge of all; and to the spirits of just men made perfect; and to the blood of sprinkling, that speaketh better things than that of Abel.' So that sometimes when I have enjoyed the savor of them, I have been able to laugh at destruction,' and to fear neither the horse nor his rider. I have had sweet sights of the forgiveness of my sins in this place, and of my being with Jesus in another world: Oh! 'the Mount Sion, the heavenly Jerusalem, the innumerable company of angels, and God the Judge of all, and the spirits of just men made perfect,' and Jesus, have been sweet unto me in this place: I have seen that here, that I am persuaded I shall never, while in this world, be able to express. I have seen a truth in this scripture, Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now you see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable, and full of glory.'

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"I never knew what it was for God to stand by me at all turns, and at every offer of Satan to afflict me, as I have found him since I came in hither: for look, however fears have presented themselves, so have supports and encouragements; yea, when I have started, even as it were, at nothing else but my shadow, yet God, as being very tender of me, hath not suffered me to be molested, but would with one scripture or another, strengthen me against all; insomuch that I have often said, Were it lawful, I could pray for greater trouble, for the greater comfort's sake. Consider the work of God, for who can make that straight which he hath made crooked? In the day of prosperity be joyful, but in the day of adversity consider. God

also hath set the one over against the other, to the end that man should find nothing after him. For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth in Christ.'

"Before I came to prison, I saw what was coming, and had especially two considerations warm upon my heart; the first was, how to be able to encounter death, should that be here my portion. For the first of these, that scripture was great information to me, namely, to pray to God 'to be strengthened with all might, according to his glorious power, unto all patience and long suffering with joyfulness.' I could seldom go to prayer before I was imprisoned, for not so little as a year together, but this sentence, or sweet petition, would, as it were, thrust itself into my mind, and persuade me, that if ever I would go through long-suffering, I must have patience, especially if I would endure it joyfully.

"As to the second consideration, that saying was of great use to me,But we had the sentence of death in ourselves, that we might not trust in ourselves but in God that raiseth the dead.' By this scripture I was made to see, That if ever I would suffer rightly, I must first pass a sentence of death upon every thing that can properly be called a thing of this life, even to reckon myself, my wife, my children, my health, my enjoyments, and all as dead to me, and myself as dead to them.

"The second was to live upon God that is invisible, as Paul said in another place; the way not to faint is, 'To look not on the things that are seen, but at the things that are not seen; for the things that are seen are temporal, but the things that are not seen are eternal.' And thus I reasoned with myself, If I provide only for a prison, then the whip comes at unawares, and so doth also the pillory! Again, if I only provide for these, then I am not fit for banishment. Further, if I conclude that banishment is the worst, then if death comes, I am surprised.

so that I see, the best way to go through sufferings, is to trust in God through Christ, as touching the world to come; and as touching this world, 'to count the grave my house, to make my bed in darkness; to say to corruption, Thou art my father, and to the worm, Thou art my mother and sister:' that is, to familiarize these things to me.

"But notwithstanding these helps, I found myself a man encompassed with infirmities; the parting with my wife and poor children, hath often been to me in this place, as the pulling the flesh from the bones; and that not only because I am somewhat too fond of these great mercies, but also because I should have often brought to my mind the many hardships, miseries, and wants that my poor family was like to meet with, should I be taken from them ;-especially my poor blind child, who lay nearer my heart than all beside: Oh! the thoughts of the hardship I thought my poor blind one might go under, would break my heart to pieces.

"Poor child! thought I, what sorrow art thou like to have for thy portion in this world? Thou must be beaten, must beg, suffer hunger, cold, nakedness, and a thousand calamities, though I cannot now endure the wind should blow upon thee' But yet recalling myself, thought I, I must venture you all with God, though it goeth to the quick to leave you. Oh! I saw in this condition, that I was as a man who was pulling down his house upon the head of his wife and children; yet, thought I, I must do it,-I must do it! And now I thought on those two milch kine that were to carry the ark of God into another country, and to leave their calves behind them.'

"But that which helped me in this temptation, were divers considerations, of which, three in special here I will name: The first was the consideration of these two scriptures, 'Leave thy fatherless children, I will preserve them alive, and let thy widows trust in me:' and again, The Lord said, Verily, it

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