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PRINTED BY J. WERTHEIMER AND CO., CIRCUS PLACE, FINSBURY CIRCUS.

B942, 4 pi

1845

THE

AUTHOR'S APOLOGY FOR HIS BOOK.

WHEN at the first I took my pen in hand,
Thus for to write; I did not understand
That I at all should make a little book
In such a mode: nay, I had undertook
To make another; which, when almost done,
Before I was aware, I this begun.

And thus it was:-I, writing of the way
And race of saints in this our Gospel-day,
Fell suddenly into an Allegory

About their journey, and the way to Glory,
In more than twenty things which I set down:
This done, I twenty more had in my crown;
And they again began to multiply,

Like sparks that from the coals of fire do fly.
Nay, then, (thought I), if that you breed so fast,
I'll put you by yourselves, lest you at last
Should prove ad infinitum, and eat out
The book that I already am about.
Well, so I did; but yet I did not think
To shew to all the world my pen and ink
In such a mode; I only thought to make
I knew not what: nor did I undertake
Thereby to please my neighbour; no, not I;
I did it my ownself to gratify.

Neither did I but vacant seasons spend
In this my scribble; nor did I intend

But to divert myself, in doing this,

From worser thoughts which make me do amiss.

Thus I set pen to paper with delight,

And quickly had my thoughts in black and white.
For having now my method by the end,

Still as I pull'd, it came; and so I penn'd
It down; until it came at last to be,

For length and breadth, the bigness which you see.
Well, when I had thus put my ends together,
I shew'd them others, that I might see whether

They would condemn them, or them justify:

And some said, "Let them live;" some, "Let them die."
Some said, " John, print it;" others said, "Not so."
Some said, "It might do good;" others said, "No."
Now I was in a strait, and did not see

Which was the best thing to be done by me:
At last I thought, "Since ye are thus divided,
I print it will;" and so the case decided.

For (thought I), some, I see, would have it done,
Though others in that channel do not run:
To prove then who advised for the best,
Thus I thought fit to put it to the test.

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I farther thought; if now I did deny
Those that would have it, thus to gratify;
I did not know, but hinder them I might
Of that which would to them be great delight:
For those which were not for it coming forth,
I said to them, "T" offend you I am loth:
Yet, since your brethren pleased with it be,
Forbear to judge, till you do farther see.
If that thou wilt not read, let it alone;
Some love the meat, some love to pick a bone."
Yea, that I might them better moderate,

I did too with them thus expostulate:-

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'May I not write in such a style as this;

In such a method too, and yet not miss

My end, thy good? Why may it not be done?
Dark clouds bring waters, when the bright bring none:

Yea, dark or bright, if they their silver drops
Cause to descend; the earth, by yielding crops,
Gives praise to both, and carpeth not at either,
But treasures up the fruit they yield together;
Yea, so commixes both, that, in their fruit,
None can distinguish this from that; they suit
Her well when hungry; but if she be full,
She spews out both, and makes their blessing null.
"You see the ways the fisherman doth take
To catch the fish; what engines doth he make?
Behold! how he engageth all his wits,
Also his snares, lines, angles, hooks, and nets:
Yet fish there be, that neither hook nor line,
Nor snare, nor net, nor engine, can make thine;
They must be grop'd for, and be tickled too,
Or they will not be catch'd, whate'er you do.

"How does the fowler seek to catch the game
By divers means? all which one cannot name;
His gun, his nets, his lime-twigs, light and bell:-
He creeps, he goes, he stands; yea, who can tell

Of all his postures? Yet, there's none of these
Will make him master of what fowls he please.
Yea, he must pipe and whistle, to catch this,
Yet if he does so, that bird he will miss.
If that a pearl may in a toad's head dwell,
And may be found too in an oyster-shell;
If things that promise nothing, do contain
What better is than gold; who will disdain,
That have an inkling of it, there to look,
That they may find it?-Now, my little book
(Though void of all these paintings that may make
It with this or the other man to take)

Is not without those things that do excel

What do in brave, but empty notions dwell."

Well, yet I am not fully satisfied,

That this your book will stand, when soundly tried.

"Why, what's the matter?—It is dark.—What though?-

But it is feigned.—What of that? I trow,

Some men by feigned words, as dark as mine,
Make truth to spangle, and its rays to shine!-
But they want solidness; speak, man, thy mind:
They drown the weak, metaphors make us blind.
"Solidity, indeed, becomes the pen

Of him that writeth things divine to men:-
But must I needs want solidness, because
By metaphors I speak? Were not God's Laws,
His Gospel-laws, in older times, held forth
By types, shadows, and metaphors? Yet loth
Will any sober man be to find fault
With them; lest he be found for to assault
The Highest Wisdom. No, he rather stoops,
And seeks to find out by what pins and loops,
By calves and sheep, by heifers and by rams,
By birds and herbs, and by the blood of lambs,
God speaketh to him: and happy is he,
That finds the light and grace that in them be.
"Be not too forward therefore to conclude

That I want solidness; that I am rude:

All things solid in show, not solid be;

All things in parables despise not we,

Lest things most hurtful lightly we receive;
And things that good are, of our souls bereavc.
"My dark and cloudy words they do but hold

The truth, as cabinets inclose the gold.

"The prophets used much by metaphors To set forth truth: yea, whoso considers Christ, his apostles too, shall plainly see, That truths to this day in such mantles be.

"Am I afraid to say, that Holy Writ,

Which for its style and phrase puts down all wit,
Is every-where so full of all these things,
(Dark figures, allegories)? Yet there springs
From that same book, that lustre and those rays
Of light, that turn our darkest nights to days.

"Come, let my carper to this life now look,
And find there darker lines than in my book
He findeth any: yea, and let him know,
That in his best things there are worse lines too.
"May we but stand before impartial men,
To his poor one I dare adventure ten,

That they will take my meaning in these lines
Far better than his lies in silver shrines.

Come, truth, although in swaddling clouts, I find,
Informs the judgment, rectifies the mind;
Pleases the understanding, makes the will
Submit: the memory too it doth fill
With what doth our imagination please;
Likewise it tends our troubles to appease.

"Sound words, I know, Timothy is to use, And old-wives' fables he is to refuse:

But yet grave Paul him no-where did forbid
The use of parables; in which lay hid

That gold, those pearls, and precious stones, that were
Worth digging for, and that with greatest care.

"Let me add one word more.- -O man of God,

Art thou offended? Dost thou wish I had

Put forth my matter in another dress?

Or, that I had in things been more express?
To those that are my betters, as is fit,
Three things let me propound; then I submit.

1. "I find not that I am denied the use Of this my method; so I no abuse

Put on the words, things, readers; or be rude

In handling figure, or similitude,

In application; but, all that I may,

Seek the advance of truth, this or that way;
Denied, did I say? Nay, I have leave
(Examples too, and that from them that have
God better pleased by their words or ways,
Than any man that breathes now-a-days),
Thus to express my mind; thus to declare
Things unto thee that excellentest are.

2. "I find that men (as high as trees) will write
Dialogue-wise; yet no man doth them slight
For writing so: indeed, if they abuse

Truth; cursed be they, and the craft they use

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