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Faith. Nay, I know not whether I did wholly escape her, or no.*
Chr. Why, I trow you did not consent to her desires.
Faith. No, not to defile myself, for I remembered an old writing that I had seen, which said, “ her steps take hold of hell.” So I shut mine eyes, because I would not be bewitched with her looks :— then she railed on me, and I went my way.
Chr. Did you meet with no other assault as you
Faith. When I came to the foot of the hill called Difficulty, I met with a very aged man, HE WAS ASSAULTED who asked me what I was, and whitherBY ADAM THE FIRST. bound ? I told him that I am a pilgrim going to the Celestial City. Then said the old man, Thou lookest like an honest fellow; wilt thou be content to dwell with me, for the wages that I shall give thee? Then I asked him his name, and where he dwelt. He said, his name was Adam the First, t and that he dwelt in the town of Deceit. I asked him then what was his work, and what the wages that he would give ? He told me, that his work was many delights ; and his wages, that I should be his heir at last. I further asked him, what house he kept, and what other servants he had ? So he told me, that his house was maintained with all the dainties of the world, and that his servants were those of his own begetting. Then I asked how many children
y Prov. 5. 5. Job xxxi. 1. 2 Eph. iv, 22. * A jealous conscience is grieved for the secret inclining of the flesh to lust, and can hardly acquit itself of guilt. This makes the cleansing blood of Christ exceedingly precious, while the soul is sunk into humility and self-loathing.
+ That is, original sin, or indwelling corruption, which has infected our whole nature.
he had ? He said, that he had but three daughters, “ the Lust of the Flesh, the Lust of the Eyes, and the Pride of Life ;'a and that I should marry them if I would. Then I asked, how long time he would have me live with him? And he told me, as long as he lived himself.
Chr. Well, and what conclusion came the old man and you to at last ?
Faith. Why, at first I found myself somewhat inclinable to go with the man, for I thought he spoke very fair ; but looking in his forehead as I talked with him, I saw there written, “ Put off the old man with his deeds."*
Chr. And how then ?
Faith. Then it came burning hot into my mind, whatever he said, and however he flattered, when he got me home to his house he would sell me for a slave. So I bid him forbear to talk, for I would not come near the door of his house. Then he reviled me, and told me, that he would send such a one after me, that should make my way bitter to my soul. So I turned to go away from him ; but just as I turned myself to go thence, I felt him take hold of my flesh, and give me such a deadly twitch back, that I thought he had pulled part of me after himself :t this made me cry, O wretched man ! So I went on my way up the hill.
a 1 John ii. 16. b Rom. vii. 24. * Blessed is the man who does not consult with flesh and blood, but looks to and obeys what is written by the Lord.
+ Though original sin is hard to be borne, it is good to be sensible of its evil. Though it makes us cry, “ O wretched !" yet it tends to keep up a sense of our want of Christ, and of the worth of him, and that nothing less than the God-man Christ Jesus can be our salvation.
Now, when I had got about half way up, I looked behind me, and saw one coming after me, swift as the wind; so he overtook me just about the place where the settle stands.
Chr. Just there, said Christian, did I sit down to rest me; but being overcome with sleep, I there lost this roll out of my bosom.
Faith. But, good brother, hear me out :-So soon as the man overtook me, he was but a word and a blow, for down he knocked me, and laid me for dead. But when I was a little come to myself again, I asked him wherefore he served me so ? He said, because of my secret inclining to Adam the First ;* and with that he struck me another deadly blow on the breast, and beat me down backward : so I lay at his foot as dead as before. So when I came to myself again, I cried, him mercy: but he said, I know not how to show mercy; and with that knocked me down again. He had doubtless made an end of me, but that one came by, and bid him forbear.
Chr. Who was that that bid him forbear ?
Faith. I did not know him at first; but as he went by, I perceived the holes in his hands and in his sides ; then I concluded that he was our Lord. So I went up the hill.
Car. That man that overtook you was Moses. He spareth none, neither knoweth
THE TEN PER OF MOSES.
* This is afterwards explained to be Moses, or the law of God. Think not that the law reacheth only to outward gross actions ; nay, but it reacheth to the thoughts and intents of the heart. It knocks a man's hopes down, and curses him to death, even for only secret inclining to lust. So strict, so spiritual, so pure is the holy law of God. Hence none but self-righteous, vain-glorious fools can place the least confidence in their obedience to the law, and trust in their own righteousness for justification.
he how to show mercy to those that transgress lis law.
Faith. I know it very well ; it was not the first time that he has met with me. It was he that came to me when I dwelt securely at home, and that told me he would burn my house over my head if I staid there. *
Car. But did you not see the house that stood there on the top of the hill, on the side of which Moses met
Faith. Yes, and the lions too, before I came at it:but, for the lions, I think they were asleep; for it was about noon :-and, because I had so much of the day before me, I passed by the Porter, and came down the hill.
Chr. He told me, indeed, that he saw you go by ; but I wish that you had called at the house, for they would have showed you so many rarities, that you would scarce have forgot them to the day of your death.But pray tell me, did you meet nobody in the valley of Humility ? Faith. Yes, I met with one Discontent, who would Assault- willingly have persuaded me to go back
* again with him : his reason was, for that the valley was altogether without honour. He told me, moreover, that there to go was the way to disobey all my friends, as Pride, Arrogancy, Self-conceit, Worldlyglory, with others, who he knew, as he said, would be very much offended if I made such a fool of myself as to wade through this valley.t.
ED BY DISCONTENT.
* That sinner, who never had a threatening fiery visit from Moses, is yet asleep in his sins, and secure in his soul, though under the curse and wrath of the fiery law of God.
+ Here observe the different experience of Christians, in regard to the enemies they meet with. We do not read that Christian was attacked by Discontent, as Faithful was; but yet Faithful reasoned, and got the better of this enemy. Many pilgrims go on much more contented than others. The reasoning of faith will ever prevail over that discontent which springs from pride, arrogancy, self-conceit, and a thirst for worldly glory, riches, and pleasures.
FAITH PUL'S ANSWER
Chr. Well, and how did you answer him ?
Faith. I told him, that although all these that he named might claim a kindred of me, and put that rightly, (for indeed they were my relations according to the flesh;) yet since I became a pilgrim, they have disowned me, and I also have rejected them, and therefore they were to me now no more than if they had never been of my lineage. I told him, moreover, that as to this valley, he had quite misrepresented the thing; for “ before honour is humility," and “ a haughty spirit before a fall.” Therefore, said I, I had rather go through this valley to the honour that was so accounted by the wisest, than choose that which he esteemed most worthy of our affections.
Chr. Met you with nothing else in that valley ?
Faith. Yes, I met with Shame; but of all the men that I met with on my pilgrimage, he, 1 HE IS ASSAULTED think, bears the wrong name. The other BY SHAM would be said nay, after a little argumentation and somewhat else: but this boldfaced Shame would never have done.
Chr. Why, what did he say to you?
Faith. What ! why he objected against religion itself: he said, it was a pitiful, low, sneaking business, for a man to mind religion. He said, that a tender conscience was an unmanly thing; and that for a man to watch over his words and ways, so as to tie up himself from that hectoring liberty that the brave spirits of
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